Tiga bulan terakhir ini di pekerjaan saya mendapat kesempatan untuk menjadi acting Supervisor. Suatu kesempatan yang awalnya sama sekali tidak saya inginkan. Satu bulan pertama adalah masa-masa terkelam. Saya terus menghitung hari kapan acting position ini akan berakhir.
Walaupun hari-hari terasa berat, saya terus jalani panggilan ini dengan setia. It might be stormy now but it can’t rain forever. The saying is true because as time goes by, things get better. I get better. Saya bangkit dari mentality ‘kenapa saya yang dipilih menjadi acting Supervisor’ ke mentality ‘I can do this through Christ who strengthens me’.
I studied hard on how to do this Supervisor position. I collected data to measure performance. I studied each of my Team member, identify their strength and weaknesses. I seek leadership advice from the experienced people. I gave my all, my God-given ability, and make the best life I can with it.
Proverbs 14:23 says there is profit in hard work. Di bulan kedua, saya mulai bisa melihat buah dari semuanya. Team saya yang tadinya amburadul mentalnya perlahan bangkit. Wajah-wajah mereka tidak lagi suram, I start seeing smile on their face. I can feel they start to get their joy back. Dan itu semua reflected di performance kerja mereka. My team is more productive than ever, we stand out from the other two teams.
Saya yang tadinya sangat anti dengan posisi ini menjadi sangat menyukainya. Oleh karena itu saya memutuskan untuk apply for the Supervisor position when it is being advertised. The position is advertised both internally and externally, dengan total application yang masuk adalah 23. Out of 23 applicants, 7 people got shortlisted for the first interview. I was one of them. From 7 people, only 2 went to the final interview. And I was one of them too. So at the end, it is between myself and the other person who is external applicant.
I didn’t get the job at the end. They decided to go with the external applicant for few reasons. Apakah saya sedih? Pastinya. I was so close to get it. Namun di balik kesedihan, ada perasaan lain yang lebih besar yang saya rasakan, yaitu perasaan bersyukur. Bersyukur atas penyertaan tangan Tuhan selama tiga bulan terakhir ini. It’s God’s grace that I endure. God calls, God keeps, God establishes, God glorifies.
I lived with no regrets for the past three months. I gave my best. I endured all the horrible days and suffering, they seem meaningless but no pain here is wasted. They are producing a great weight of glory beyond all comparisons. Through the hard days, the works of God are being displayed in my life. God increases my faith and produces perseverance. Praise God!
2 Corinthians 4:16-18
Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.
God Bless,
(AS)
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